'My adoptive mother didn't want me'

Rasika Bos grows up in Sri Lanka. The family is very poor. When Rasika is three years old, her mother dies. Rasika's father blames her mother's death for reasons that are unclear. From that moment on, she is severely abused by him.

At the age of five, Rasika and her sister Niluka are adopted by the Dutch couple Bos. Everything seems to be changing for the better. But later she learns that her adoptive mother had not wanted her at all. She only wanted the younger sister, who was still a toddler at the time. Because her husband was too old to adopt just the younger sister, she had to take Rasika in.

Strict

Fortunately, Rasika gets along very well with her new adoptive father. But her adoptive mother is very strict and even mean to Rasika. She regularly has to eat with her back to the family because her mother does not want to look at her. Or she is sent to bed without food because her mother thinks Rasika did not try her best in swimming lessons.

Depression

When Rasika is 10, her adoptive father dies. Her mother already had a drinking problem, but this will only get worse after the death of her husband. Due to the stress in the family, Rasika gets more and more physical problems such as stomach pain, bladder infections and constant fatigue. She is only twelve when she has her first burnout. Her feelings of depression keep getting worse. Eventually, Rasika flees the house, but her depression and other troubles continue to haunt her in the years that follow.

Wheelchair

Her health goes completely wrong when she gives birth to her second child. Her doctors tell Rasika to prepare for life in a wheelchair. The thought of ending her life comes to her more and more. It is during this period that a friend asks if she wants to go to a healing service.

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